I’m still playing catch-up from the weekend misfortunes, but at least I’m playing. I definitely had an attitude challenge going and thankfully, have moved through it. My house is almost normal, though my ears are tuned to the on/off cycles of the furnace and I”m less than completely unpacked. But my truck is running and I was able to get groceries and sand from the pile kept by the city for ice emergencies such as we had. Hard to imagine that clearing away ice is a topic of local news, but it is. I heard that cities nearby are going to begin sending out workers to chop/scrape ice from the sidewalks and homeowners will be charged $80 for the service. That’s winter where I live.
I don’t have sidewalks. I have a fairly long driveway that empties into a circle around which the house, garage, shed, barn, etc, are grouped, a fairly large area to attack with traditional methods like sidewalk salt and/or sand and a manual ice chipper. So I mixed salt into the 32-gallon trash barrel full of sand and spread it strategically, hoping that a slight rise in temperature would facilitate some melting. The weatherman said it wouldn’t happen today, but how often is the guy right? Today, of course, when I have to make sure that my students and their parents can get in and out of the driveway and the house safely.
Being a generally positive positive person and no longer dwelling in self-pity, I looked for the humor. Today that was visualizing myself trying to carry a bucket of salt/sand from back steps to garage – remember it’s an out-building -while utilizing ski poles to stay upright – how many hands did I say I have? But at least the ski poles were handy, already out on the back porch as part of seasonal decor and they did, indeed, aid in keeping me on my feet and a brown salt/sand path now runs from the house to the garage making safe passage more likely.
As for getting the truck started, thanks to the wood stove out in the garage and numerous trips to stoke it with kindling and all the paper I’ve been meaning to burn, bundled and booted against negative wind chills, I produced enough heat to thaw the lines of the truck and on one of those trips to stoke the fire I decided to just give it another try. Singing like a child at the top of my lungs – another reason to live in the country fairly far removed from neighbors – “I am trusting Thee to guide me, Thou alone shalt lead, every day and hour supplying all my need,” I turned the key in the ignition and, voilà, the truck started.
To quote my father once again, “There you have it.” When feeling sad, defeated, low, I resort to music and prayer, sometimes together via old favorite hymns, or playing my piano. Try it, sing like no one can hear you, unless you have a beautiful voice – then sing so everyone can.
And remember, you cannot – it’s not physically possible – you cannot be singing praises out loud and dwelling in despair in your mind. The brain doesn’t work that way – we are fearfully and wonderfully made.